What's wrong with mediocre?
I've decided somewhat early in my University career that I am perfectly happy to do just enough to "get by". This isn't high school anymore. You actually have to work quite hard to get 80+. What's wrong with high 70's...or...even "above average"? Do I want to work an extra 5 hours a week (or more) to get +5% in my course work? The answer is.....NO.
This is alright for school, but how will this attitude work in real life? I see my team leaders and managers slave over work and spend very little time with their families. Sure they have a fatter paycheque, but is it worth it?
Maybe I'm not settling for mediocrity...maybe I just know how to strike a balance between work and play...maybe I'm just lazy. Yea, that's probably it.
Old guys get me
I know what you're thinking. It sounded weird to me too when the revelation first popped into my head.
It's hard to read the Banana Boys without thinking about your own relationship (or lack thereof). I have a theory about "emotional maturity". It is something that is not necessarily based on age, sex, or experience. Those who are emotionally mature really get what relationships are about and know what they want. I know some who have had many relationships but remain emotionally immature. I know others who had very few relationships but are exceptionally mature.
For whatever reason, old guys get me and I think it's based on their high emotional maturity. It's got nothing to do with my maturity level (I can't really say whether mine is high or not) but with my character/personality. I'm thinking specifically of 3 men that I've met over the past year. In a weird, but completely non-perverse, way they make me feel special because they see me for who I am. And this makes them sparkle in my eyes.
This probably doesn't make sense to anyone else but me. I don't mind, because this happens a lot anyway. What I really want is for one special person to get me and sweep me off my feet. Is sparkle too much to ask?
That's right, I like to stare
Staring has been a favourite pass time of mine. It is the only thing that keeps me from gagging during my long long daily long daily long TTC journeys.
I understand that some people regard this as a rude practice. I believe that it is rude only if you make the other person uncomfortable. If you're shneaky enough, the "What they don't know won't hurt them" rule applies. This can be done by taking quick glances, or by using the reflection off the glass. This last technique works particularly well if you're seated right next to the windows. You can stare at a LOT of people that way.
Staring is a little more difficult on the bus. This is one of the reason why I lub my sunglasses. With the colour reflective coat, I can stare at you all I want and you wouldn't even know it. I can look straight ahead for the whole ride and be staring at everyone in my peripheral vision. The only thing is that you get a lot of people staring back at you, wondering whether you're staring at them. This amuses me.
Another thing that gives me a kick is staring at someone who is staring at someone else. It's like "Hunter Hunted" (which was a great game that came with my PC lightyears ago, btw). My life goal is to be able to stare at someone who is staring at someone staring at someone. That will be the best day of my life. Well, top 20 anyway.
