With This I Wash My Hands

By the tens, hundreds, and thousands
They are sent to slaughter
The torture a slow process
Squeezing out individuality

They blah and they bleat
But making no attempt to revolt
Reality slips from their reach
Accepting pain as their routine

A few black sheep manage
To break free and live
The others look on with no yearning
Casting dirty looks instead

Without hope, desire, or will to live
They look on with blank stares
Too blinded to see
The blood on their hands

- Stephanie Lau

Letting someone else do my blog for me

http://www.colorgenics.com/sps/index.cfm

I took the test twice (with different choices) to see what would happen...the first is about 75% correct and the second is about 90% correct...

TEST ONE:
You are always alert and keenly observant. You are not truly satisfied with your everyday status and you are seeking fresh avenues which can give you the opportunity to prove your worth. You feel that there are still many barriers that stand between you and recognition - but one by one you will overcome them. Your tenacity is your one good point - like an English Bulldog, once you take the bite, you will seldom let go.
Always anxious to accept the role of the leader, as indeed you often work well with people - but try to stay out of the limelight. You'd like a life of ease with no one to rock the boat and someone who understands you is so important in your life.

You are feeling under considerable pressure and you are being forced to make concessions. You are not particularly happy with this state of affairs but you feel that you have no alternative. If you were to force issues you would be left out or completely ignored by one and all.

Whatever has caused the situation, you just don't seem to be able to sustain or maintain relationships as you would wish to. What you really seek is to be able to develop a relationship with someone with whom you can truly share: Love, Serenity, Peace and Quiet. But you are a very demanding person and it is your nature that leads to disquiet and discord: you are like the tide, flotsam and jetsam... One minute you experience 'highs' and a few moments later 'lows'. This obviously will introduce discord into any relationship and with this demanding attitude - the ideal state you desire is unable to develop. Despite the urge to gratify your natural desires, you impose a considerable self-restraint on your instincts in the belief that this demonstrates your superiority and raises you above the common herd. You are extremely critical of everything that is presently going on around you and you find it difficult to listen to or to take advice from anyone. You enjoy the original, the ingenious and the subtle.

You feel that you need to move on. You feel that you are not appreciated or valued for what you are and that the time is 'now'. Failure to do so will not afford you the conditions to prove your worth.


TEST TWO:
You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfillment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realize the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back... so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.

You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.

You wear your heart on your sleeve and since you are an emotional person you are apt to give your all - heart and soul - to all those that show you a little affection; but take care - it would appear that you have been extremely hurt in the past and you keep leaving yourself wide open for punishment.

Whatever you strive to do, something always seems to be holding you back. There is no subterfuge in you. You are a clear thinker and all you demand from life, in a relationship, is a partner whom you can trust and with whom you can, together, develop a foundation of trust based on understanding. You are your own person and you demand freedom of thought to follow your own convictions. You have no interest in 'two-timing' and all you seek is sincerity and 'straight-dealing'.

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

Cursed Gift

Forged by circumstances deplorable
Struggling through tears and pain
In retrospect it is the sole upside
Offsetting scars that forever remain

Happily it rests deep within
Surfaces only by necessity
A cursed gift earned not given
Shoulders heavy with responsibility

Others choose shelter and protection
Leading lives of ignorance and inadequacy
Avoiding the road of arduous struggle
That fights against their revered complacency

Do not mistake it for conceit or arrogance
That others use to disguise their deficit
This only serves to mock the hurt
And character it took to overcome it

- Stephanie Lau

Friend - hopefully not - foe

People are victims of time. We deny, ignore, delay, and plead against its passing [to no avail]. The funny thing is that no matter how quickly time moves forward, people change even quicker. Homo sapiens are a fickle, fickle bunch. Nothing is safe. Not our beliefs, interests, or relationships.

True, long-lasting friendships are difficult to come by. Friends that stand beside you through thick and thin throughout your life are exceptions rather than norms. That's not to say that true friends are hard to find. It's the long-lasting ones that are rare.

People take unique courses through life and change at different rates. It takes a Herculean effort to stay close with someone when life is pulling you in different directions. It makes me sad that I'm not as close to some friends as I used to be. I hope they understand that they were instrumental to my life then [for which I am still grateful] and I did not wish for us to drift apart. I also hope that they still treat me with the same respect I give them. There is no need for misplaced self-righteousness.

For those of you who are near and dear to me and have managed to put up with me ever since you've known me [a difficult task, I'm sure], I want to give you my sincere thanks.

Happy birthday to me!

A year older, five years wiser.

KABOOM

Missile defense has been a hot topic of late. The only thing I know about the actual subject is whatever I have inferred from its name. So the US basically wants to DEFEND North America by shooting down incoming MISSILES [if celebrities can get honorary PhD’s, why can’t I?].

You have to admit that when you watch knowledgeable people argue an intellectual topic, it’s often boring. For example, I’d rather watch Anna Nicole Smith and Jessica Simpson than two scientists argue about quantum physics. So this is where I come in. Although I am no freak or bimbo, I am equally able to provide inane insight.

I do not wish to attack the validity of the missile defense program. It is a serious topic and I am in no position to jump into that dogfight [to contradict myself, I pose this question: who in their right mind would try to send missiles to the States knowing that they’ll send 50 times that over in retaliation?]. I would, however, like to comment on how some of the proponents of this program are reacting to Martin’s announcement.

1) The US will not return our phone calls.
Boo freaking hoo. Bush took 5 years to make an official visit to Canada since he was first elected to Office. You would think we’re used to getting snubbed by now.

2) The US will make trade talks more difficult.
You know your position is WEAK if you’re using the possibility of diminished trade talks to argue for our participation in the Missile Defense program. Trade talks will always be a touchy subject and it will never be easy. The US will use them as a bargaining chip for everything [it is in their best interest to do so].

3) We’re giving up our souverinty.
Do you think the US keeps repeating this word by accident? They hear us yak all day and night about how much we want to preserve our souverinty and that we don’t want to turn into a mini-me version of the US. It’s like us reacting to a bully calling us poo poo head. Why do we make things so easy for them? We should all yell sticks and stones may hurt our bones but words will never hurt us. Or as Christina says, we are beautiful, no matter what you say, words can’t bring us down. This point doesn’t even really make sense. The States are telling us that they’re going to shoot incoming missiles down whether we’d like it or not. Where’s the souverinty in that? Even if that’s the case, why do they care so much about our “pretend” approval? Damn ass politics!

I don’t know anything about the details and actual arguments for or against the program because I haven’t actually heard a proponent express legitimate reasons for his support on the television. It’s very odd that all the outrage is based on issues that have nothing to do with why the program is a good idea in the first place. Stuff like this makes it hard to see the good in the world. Knowing Martin said NO only because he has a minority government [or YES if he had a majority government] doesn’t help either.